Indifference.
Can I be alone? I just want to dissolve into nothing. For everyone, Everything To disappear. And leave me to finish Trying to understand Trying to put together, The fucked up jigsaw I’m drowning in. Where the pieces keep changing, Every time I put them down. The floor is lava, And I have no idea, and No where, that I can climb to To get a better vantage point, Of all the madness. That I still think, somehow I can fix. I’m just not good enough If I can’t save them. If I can’t be needed If I don’t belong anywhere. If I don’t matter. I feel like I am at some f’d up Supermarket with no basket, Scrambling to hold it all together Clasped on my chest. Even though everything is already Smashed upon the ground. And my arms are empty.
