without.

I wonder, how long it will take.
to get easier.yet.
I don't want it to.
it's more painful than anything else...anything else at all.
the waves are just deeper, the finality more striking.
Anything with hospitals.
Anything about sick people...
...Anything about death.

Old people in the street...I wonder just how old they are..
and why they get to be here and you don't.

you should always be here.it's ridiculous.I know.
but you should be.