The Grey Silence

I keep shivering, but I don't know
I don't know if it's because I'm cold, or...

in the kitchen the milk heating for my coffee has grown a skin
I left it a little too long. like so many things
I left it just a little too long.

there is this soft rain falling outside.
a misty fog over everything. everything.
I see no point in showering today, in going anywhere
as soon as I got up this morning
I put on the computer...put on the television.
voices, just to have voices in the background.

She left me a message after New Year.
I forgot to call her back.
...I missed her so much.
But I forgot...

I'll never hear her voice again.